Hi, it’s been awhile and since it’s the start of the new year I thought I’d start blogging again. Not sure if you will be interested or not, but it’s more for myself this time around. I need this outlet and I have missed my little blog. This time around, I am going to come clean from the start…..scary, huh? It’s funny how we presume what someone is feeling by reading a blog or their FaceBook status, but we know it’s not always 100% accurate. I can make you think I’m the happiest person alive but actually I have been dealing with extreme depression since I had major surgery and had serious complications. Sure I would have my up periods where I functioned fairly well, but the down times out number the up times by too many. It’s been hard on my family, but thankfully I have such loving and supportive husband and kids, without them I’d never have made it to be honest. The word depression is thrown around a lot, but anyone who has experienced true depression understands the utter helplessness you feel when you are dealing with it. Yes, I’m taking medication, it helps especially with the fibromyalgia, oh yes, I was diagnosed with that also, but there is still something….it’s hard to explain and to be honest I’m not ready to be that honest with you yet. I’m not even sure if I’ll hit the publish button when I finish this, I’m hoping I will as I truly want to start 2012 on a positive note and I believe putting this out there is a start.

Sidenote: Took me a few days…but I finally hit publish.